The new verdict is in...

Okay, here is the latest...
I went to the doctor today and shared some concerns I was having since my last injection. #1 on my list was that the pain is not gone. I hadn't even noticed that my leg pain was mostly gone until he was asking me questions and doing various movements while examining me this morning. Well, the good news is, the injections seemingly worked. They stopped the nerve pain and therefore they were a success, BUT the problem now is the arthritis I have. Until now, the focus has solely been on my nerve involvement, but now the focus is shifting to the arthritis (aka degenerative disc disease). The doctor said he never sees arthritis this bad on someone my age(29). So, phase 2 will now be underway...
~Get blood work done to determine if I have rheumatoid or any other kind of arthritis.
~Begin physical therapy ~ twice a week for 5 weeks at $25 a pop.
~Start 2 different kinds of medication.
~After the P.T. if the results aren't good we have some options, albeit NOT appealing to me at this time. Here they are... They can do more injections into the area where the arthritis is, but these injections only last for a short time and will have to be readministered every 6 - 8 months. The problem here is because I am so young, they cannot give me these doses of medication for the rest of my life so the next step would be to go in every 18 - 24 months and have the nerves actually burned! YIKES!! No thank you!
So now our thinking has to shift from thinking this is a problem that stinks and will be gone soon to the BIG possibility that this is our new life and deal with all that it brings. I am having a hard time processing this, but I am trusting God's work in all of this. I keep reminding myself that this may not be the set up for mothering that I imagined or the ideal wife that I have in mind, but IT IS the mother and wife God intended for me to be and He will meet our needs.
On a lighter note...
I took the boys with me to my appointment this morning. Collin is afraid of Doctor's because he associates them with pain ( broken arm, shots and fun stuff like that ) so he cried and I had to hold him for the first half of my appointment. Now I know that while holding a screaming 2 year old and getting my blood pressure taken my BP was still great. :) Then, when Dr. Manocha came in, he said hello to Noah who in turn said "hello Jesus". I was confused until it occurred to me later that Noah prays everyday that Jesus will make my back feel better and on the way to my appt this morning, I told him that we were going to see the doctor that is making Mommy's back all better. Unfortunately, our morning outing ended with Collin throwing up all over himself about 2 blocks from home. Ahh! No wonder I am tired. :)